My baby is a failure. Yep, he failed his hearing test today--in both ears. His dad is so proud. "There's nothing like starting out really low in life so everyone will be proud of each little achievement you make." Just kidding of course. But herein lies our tough choice: persistent fluid behind the eardrums, chronic infections, no sleeping at night, and now impaired hearing--are we jumping the gun to have tubes put in our 10-month-old's ears?
I have two school-teacher friends. Sometimes when they get together they complain about "parents." And although I know they are both reasonable people, not ones to blow things out of proportion, and although I *think* they both believe that Jeremy and I do an adequate job as parents, I still can't help but feel on the defensive around those conversations.
My argument? It is really hard being a parent! It is really hard to make choices about what will be in the best interest of your child. We are constantly second-guessing our choices and theories and ways of doing things. Sometimes looking back we feel we made a good decision, sometimes looking back we feel we made the wrong decision, and sometimes there will never be any way for us to tell.
We've made the decision to have the tubes put in. The diagnosis today of hearing troubles, makes us feel good about the decision. Now the only thing we can do is sit back, wait, hope and pray it's the right decision.
Wish us luck with surgery on Monday--or pray for us--whichever you're inclined to do:-)